“For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made (set apart). Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well.” Psalm 139:13-14
Yes, indeed there is truth, there is hope, there is life, and there is purpose. For I indeed used to be apart from this, you can say that I lived in a place where my mind believed the direct opposite, another way of saying this is that I was dead unto the truth, unto hope, unto life and unto understanding true purpose.
But yet, if my personal belief, that where I lived in my mind, was never confronted and never challenged against an eternal scope, there would indeed be no cause for me to investigate and ponder upon anything outside my narrow single-directional box. It was when I was confronted with the inner discomfort and questions of Jesus Christ, the “Word made flesh,” (John 1:14) the very “life made manifest,” (1 John 1:2) that my ignorantly liberal self-mindset and moral goodness, that which I said did not exist but yet thought myself good in spite, was radically opened; and if I truly wanted to know truth, the weight I was feeling against me could either be considered a figment of imagination, or a thought process I had to deal with, although foreign and seemingly uncomfortable.
This resulted in a drastic and direct contradiction to the ideologies of what I had always believed, and soon I found myself not nearly as good as I had previously thought (Genesis 6:5, 8:21). For in the name of truth, I rejected the truth as immediately being false, this so that my self-centered, easy, and arrogant, beliefs were never challenged.
It was in that moment that a radical wake up from myself, from my dead single-tracked, self-centered mindset, happened. I was awakening from the lies that had been told to me by so many others; others, who they themselves, could not rationally and logically explain their own beginnings and moral condition.
How can we think, in our depths, that we really have no purpose and yet are somewhat good? How can we verbalize non-morality while living in subdivided lines of self-made personal goodness, balance against nothing and yet something, and in the name of wisdom, then deny wisdom, logic and common sense?
I was radically set free of a bondage I could barely understand, and had no ability to verbalize, yet when the grace of God, through the purpose and reality of Christ came to me, I was free. I was free from myself. I was free to cease from the continual self-justifications and searching for self-fulfillment and self-entertainments. I was free. Free from the darkness that lurked so deep, you know, the darkness that seeks to depress and oppress the inner man when left alone and left in silence, with no worldly distractions to appease the mind away from its terrible realities of emptiness, failure, fear and hopelessness.
“All things were made through Him, and without Him was not any thing made that was made. In Him was life, and the life was the light of men.” John 1:3-4
It was when the darkness of myself was exposed, made visible to myself, that I was able to see the true light. It was when the personal challenge to investigate the Word of God through Christ that I was able to see grace, see mercy, see my great need for help. When grace became visible and shown to be necessary, then the purpose of my life was made so very real. Not only the purpose of my life, but that truth, hope and eternal life were indeed a reality far beyond the liberal box of self-fulfillment.
You see, my purpose could not be seen until my personal worldview was confronted, challenged, investigated and shown for what it really is, dead unto the truth, unto true life, unto any understanding of real hope.
I was recently asked, “Would you say that God created humans primarily to worship Him or fellowship with Him?” I responded, “That’s an interesting question… I would dare say that it is entangled together, and yet at times, distinctly a predominate appearance of one being stronger, but yet never apart from the other.” If find that to be a great question, one you may not be yet ready for, and yet maybe one you think you are beyond. Regardless of where you think you are at, remember, “If anyone imagines that he knows something, he does not yet know as he ought to know.” (1 Corinthians 8:2)
I highly suggest taking some time and watching the video below produced by Living Waters. Watch it all the way through to the end. Question yourself against thoughts outside of your world of thinking, your circle of friends, your world in which you work, learn and play.
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Peace and blessings!